everytime i listen to this song..
it grabs at me with the strongest force..
i never really knew why...
but now, i think i do..

it's weird.. the pantera version gets to me more than the black sabbath version..
hmmm

the lyrics are so passionate


and the remind me of a time when i was a child..


when i was younger and living in south florida, i had this horse, jafill. i had him since i was 5 years old until i was about 13.. then we had to sell him.. -one of the saddest days of my life.- but yea.. i don't quite remember my age at the time, but i was prolly 6.
me and my mom would go horse back riding almost everyday.. it was almost spiritual. i never knew a greater feeling or bond when it came to riding jafill.. yea, i may sound like a dork, but it's true.

so yea, one day, me, my mom, and i think, a few family members went out riding in the woods..

jafill was kinda skiddish when he heard sticks break and stuff like that.. so i was kinda nervous to be riding him in the woods.. i was just a kid, there's no way i could do anything if he took off or something..
but eventually, it started to get dark.. and i've always been terrified of the dark, and being on this massive, strong animal kinda made things worse.. i spook easily in the night, and i figured that would go equally for jafill.

being as afraid as i was, i asked my mom if we could get out of the thick woods and go home..
we were very deep in the woods, so no matter what, it would take us atleast an hour til we got out of the thickness.
my mom knew i was scared, and so she told me to look up and watch the moon.. she said it would protect me and light the way home..
i look up and the sky was so clear and beautiful.. no clouds, millions of stars, and a luminous moon.
i couldn't take my eyes off of it..

i can still picture it now.. it almost lined perfectly with the tops of the trees..

i left my eyes on it for what seemed like forever. i soon noticed how bright it was with that moon around. i felt so safe, and i felt as if jafill was relieved.
eventually we made it home, and i didn't even care to go inside.. i just wanted to spend more time with jafill and the night sky.


so when i hear this song and they mention the stars and how the moon shines through the trees, i picture that night in my head.
i hold that memory so close to my heart.. mainly because i don't recall much of my child hood. at all.
it's kinda depressing.. but true.
i really miss jafill and being a child.
i wonder if he's even still alive, and wonder if those trees are still standing.
so yea.. that's why this song holds on to me like it does.




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it's so weird how i can't remember my childhood very well, but that time in my life, i can. i remember the front porch and the plants we hung by the door.. and the snakes that would crawl into those plants..
i remember the screen door where my iguana would climb onto.
i remember the stable that we kept jafill in..
i remember the time jafill cut open his leg in the ditch and had to get staples put in his leg.
i remember the time jafill was choking on alphalpha and we had to give him cpr with a garden hose..
i remember my family living next door.
i remember the swimming pool in the back yard.
i remember my birthday when i got my first slip-n-slide.
i remember walking in my cousin's house and watching this clip from some old gorey horror movie.. wow, i can actually remember that scene.. it had some dude killing people with a chainsaw and a severed hand crawling around and trying to kill some chick. haha wow.
yea.. you get the point.

it's so weird how i can picture this all so clearly.. but i have nothing else to remember from being a kid.
fuck, i miss being a kid..

and to think.. all these memories are coming back to me because of this song..

if anyone actually takes the time and reads this shit.. i want you to know that i want this song played at my funeral.